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Ready for #somethingnew?

Leaving behind this seven year journey for the better.

A new season and new identity.

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A life of an artactivist.

A platform for design, fashion, music, justice, and faith.

On a race to see my dreams come alive… here I go!

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Unstoppable

I keep telling people I am latched on a divine engine.

I just can’t stop… but this feels so right.

As if this is how kingdom speed is supposed to feel like.

As if I am finally aligned with the path God designed for me to walk in.

Before, I would get so caught up in slowing down my inner Martha while squeezing out all the inner Mary.

Now? Seatbelt buckled, vehicle going full speed, but not in a rush.
 
I constantly ask God: “What next, Lord? Now what next?

Before, I would rebuke my task-driven tendency. “Noooo! This is a spirit of performance! God doesn’t love me less because I do less for him!”

God recently shed light to this lie:

When you obey my commandments, you remain in my love, just as I obey my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes, your joy will overflow! (John 15:10-11).

For years, I asked God: “I don’t want to strive! I want all I produce to be an overflow from my relationship with you.”

Now, obedience is my fuel, my joy, my purpose.
 
But beneath the joy of abiding in His will is a greater joy:

His presence that accompanies my Yes cries. 

Truly, truly! In His presence is FULLNESS of joy! (Psalm 16:11).

How can I not say YES to the one who so freely lavish his love on me?
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Glorify in the mundane

Last week I was a droopy-eyed, starving mess trying to juggle my new internship and classes – and all other old commitments.
 
I remember one night I felt like I was going to faint. My body was confused from the fast-paced routine after two weeks of rest, rest, rest.
 
I knew that the reason lied beneath what I saw in the physical.
 
In the schemes of the enemy to steal, kill, and destroy.
 
The truth is God is doing a new thing (Isaiah 43).
 
He is in the business of making dead bones come to life (Ezekiel 37).
 
The truth is setting me free in a familiar, but in a new revolutionary way. 
 
An uproar of revolution is waiting to erupt from the depths of my soul.
 
Will I let little trips get in the way of making greater strides for the kingdom? 
 
NO WAY!
 
Among many resolutions and promise of 2014, I am especially holding onto this one: Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go (Joshua 1:7-9).
 
This is my first post of 2014, and seems more fitting than one of those overly enthusiastic “100 resolutions for new year” in the first week.
 
I have tasted reality already – the boundaries between harsh and joyful and all in between. And the Grace that overcomes… in the first 15 days of 2014.
 
One thing I realize is that glory ride is daily ride.
 
The beauty of walking with Jesus is not in the occasional, tangible, glorious victory moments, but in small heart-to-heart with Jesus in the mundane. After all, those small memories of friendships collects into an outcome of the Hooorah moment, glory revelation, or whatever you may call it.
 
People should preach more on progress than destination.
 
Do you really think that cup of water will taste as good if you airplaned your way to the oasis, rather than crawling in state of dehydration and desperation?
 
Progress is what makes our walk special. It also adds divine flavor to what we routinely do everyday.
 
Like the other day, God gave me bunch of scripture to read. I sat down in my 1.5 hour bus ride to my internship and read it all. At one point I had to stop, because I wanted to burst out in tears from the joy and thankfulness of simply being called a daughter of the most high. Right there, in the backseat of a bus, full of strangers.
 
The beauty of the little thingslet’s cherish it.
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Hope speaks

Social justice rings individuals at a heart level because it is a Pain issue, a Healing issue, a Humanity issue.

We all are victims and perpetrators of injustice – and therefore hold responsibility to participate in hope movement, whether it be in an individual or community effort.

In breaking down the systems of injustice, we will see supernatural growth and transformation. The process is not like starting from ground zero, but like peeling off layers of dust off a diamond.

Underneath the dirty and gruesome is glistening radiance called Hope.

Hopelessness breeds death. Hope breeds life.

How then can I not burn daily? My heart yearns to put an end to the advancement of the Enemy’s kingdom over humanity though poverty, trafficking, violence, rapes, wars… I believe the Lord’s heart is that we make things right.

But the truth is He is not even asking us to do this on our own. We’re only His vessels, His Love letter (2 Timothy 2:21, 2 Corinthians 3:3).

We receive a dosage of His love, and share it to the rest of the world to see and hear… and He WILL magnify and multiply. The process continues in an overflow cycle of Love. The sheer joy of being a Kingdom participant alone is enough to keep me going – even without the tangible results, for eternity.

But God is also Grace. He bears fruit through us not for us to not grow prideful, but build faith for the bigger and greater. Because He is the Great I Am.

Why am I burning for justice? It’s not just a hobby, or even a passion. It’s a life thing for me.

I realize how I was personally affected by injustice in so many different levels – as a Korean, Asian, woman, immigrant… So how can I turn the blind eye to others, especially those who are experiencing what I overcame through Jesus?

I’m learning about solutions experts throw out about injustice. For example, education is a leading solution for poverty and sex trafficking. But do you know what is more powerful?

When children in impoverished and corrupted communities are taught that someone loves them as they are and will use them to do great things.

That someone is Jesus.

The only solution to injustice is Jesus.

He is the solution and hope to all dead and hopeless.

People can form the greatest human tactics to fight injustice, but they will all fail. Only Kingdom things make permanent and lasting impact. Where Kingdom reigns dry bones come to life (Ezekiel 37). As I gaze into the eternal, I can’t stop and won’t stop. Once you start running on the eternal marathon, you are running on a supernatural engine; stopping and giving up is not an option.

How can you when you have a cloud of witnesses cheering you on on every side (Hebrews 12:1)…. and Jesus is running right besides you? He is cheering you on… and guess what? When you grow weary and tired, He picks you up and runs with you on his shoulders. If He needs to drag himself to the finish line, He will do it. Why?

Because He loves you.

Because that’s amazing Grace.

His Hope is speaking louder than ever.

Who amongst us carries the eyes to see, ears to hear, hand to act, and feet to go?

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From deep pains to soaring hopes

As injustice stings into the depths of my heart, my Jesus cry increases pitches higher. 

As I sink deeper into the pit, the Light I know radiates even brighter. 

For so long, I was in denial, pain, insecurity, fear, and doubt.

This specific truth has been unraveling and setting me free throughout 2013.

Your pain expands your ability to accept, embrace, and understand the pains of others.

I’ve finally learn to let go of hurt years deep in a way I never imagined.

In the kingdom of God, nothing is wasted.

All the small to gut-wrenching experiences of pain, regret, sorrow, and betrayal happened to me for a divine purpose: to participate in the pain of others and walk with them towards healing and freedom.

He allowed pain so I can embrace and mourn for the pain of others.
Isn’t He beautiful?

Only Jesus takes beauty from ashes, mourning into dancing, and tears to joy.

Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning… You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy (Psalm 30:5 & 11).

I can easily get lost in the pain and disappointment, but my God overcame death. And he proclaims hope over all dead things on earth.

I choose to say yes to that Hope.

My Jesus cry is not “will you please hurry and save dying souls?!” but “thank you lord your Hope us enough!”

For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently (Romans 8:24-25).

Hoped save me from pit of hell and I trust that you will rescue the next after the next until all of earth confess that you are King (Philippians 2:11).

Thank you for showing me hope that I may know hope to share hope and be hope.

Only in you I find true hope, all else breeds despair.

In Jesus, we are not just a faint flickering candle in dark, but the grand blinding light that commands darkness to cease in death. 

If only more eyes will be opened to see the magnitude of the light we know and carry…

So in deep pain and trial to come, I can close my eyes and look upward: “it’s worth it because He took it for me. It’s worth it because He took it for them.

So considers it pure joy when you suffer, and rejoice always, looking to He who for the joy see before him endured the cross (James 1:2, Philippians 4:4, Hebrews 12:2).

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An idol overlooked | pt. 2

From the days of John the Baptist until now, the kingdom of heaven has been forcefully advancing, and forceful men lay hold of it (Matthew 11:12).

Forceful men have no time to think and dwell, and consider all options. All or nothing!

The Spirit already lives in me, just release it! Stop leaning on what I know, give it to God and choose to stay in what I don’t know because the Kingdom prospers in the heart of the faith-full. 

These hearts plunge full on into the One thing:

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple (Psalm 27:4).

Forceful men daily submit to the command: “come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 28:28).

Jesus praised the Father: “you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children” (Matthew 28:25).

Little children lean completely because they know that they know nothing and are therefore so teachable. They depend on their parent for everything to provide and plan everything; they just need to follow. In the same way, the faith-full believes that God has the best intentions for us. God knows the best, he knows what we need and doesn’t ask us for perfection. His grace is sufficient.

He continues: “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 28:29-30).

The idea of Rest sometimes makes me anxious when it should give me Peace – because God created us to rest in him. When we give ourselves to God, we go into that Rest eternally. Through salvation, we believe that he carries all of us and we just need to obey the daily given portion in this safe place. We learn his gentleness and humility away from our control. More room for Jesus, no me, fully Jesus. Before we realize, we are becoming more like Jesus!

By dwelling in the Rest springs Hope.

“We ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies”(Romans 8:23). We not only conceive hope to look more like him, but also that “the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God” (Romans 8:21).

From resting with and in Jesus, we cultivate a Hope mentality for our own brokenness and also for the depravity of humanity.

For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently (Romans 8:24-25).

Isaiah 40:28-31 declares:

The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

His wisdom is unfathomable and that is given in his peace. You access divine understanding in surrender, and tap into the increasing power of weak – the kind that shames the strong. 

Flesh always fails, but hope never fails because Hope equates to Jesus himself.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

We grow tried and weary, then eventually fall because we carry our own burdens. We forsake the Matthew 28:28 command in our lives.

When we put our hope, our future, our security in Jesus, he himself renews us, and washes us clean over and over again with crazy love, grace, and truth.

How then can we continue walking?

Let’s soar higher and higher as we ought to. There is no limit to the path ahead as long as we are deeply connected to the source of all Life.

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An idol overlooked

For as long as I can remember, I carried an agenda filled with items to do for today and endless tomorrows. Crossing off an item was my delight and uncrossed items for weeks and even months was a burden.

Attending anticipated events and meetings, then coming home after feeling empty, instead of fullness and satisfaction…

So now that’s over, what is next? 

I mastered the art of agendas and to-do lists after more than a decade and pile of filled up and crossed out notebooks of various sizes.

Inside, I always knew that my obsession to complete items, move on, and add more was beyond normal, but the routine was too integrated into my daily life for me to do otherwise.

And usually I remember everything… I mean everything to the point of excess. Even when someone tells me about a potential plan or opportunity in passing, the information is automatically added into the ever accumulating web of information in my complicated brain.

This month, finishing finals a week earlier than most put a chunk of extra time on my plate. Instead of anticipated rest, however, I saw myself in anxiety with the overdue things I needed to get done when “I had more time”… but in actuality, I was far from being productive. The list overwhelmed me so much I found myself wasting and killing time.

When I’m under time constraints, I work to meet deadlines and usually do a decent job of meeting them.

So what was going on here? 

The idol of control is sin.

A place of control is living by sight, and not faith.

A life declaration of “God, I just don’t trust you enough!”

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?… O you of little faith!… But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be give to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own (Matthew 6:27, 30, 33-34).

Instead of anxiety, we’re called to 24/7 joy. It’s not an option, but a command.

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:4-7).

This passage is one of my long-time favorites. A recent revelation unveiled more secrets about these words of life:

1) I always questioned, out of all traits, why gentleness? Gentleness equates to Jesus-likeness. Why should we make Him known and “evident to all”? He is near to our hearts and must be reflected outwards, as a lamp should not be hidden under a bowl (Matthew 5:15). Also, the Time is near. He is coming soon – and He must be known to all, so every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord (Philippians 2:10-11).

2) We must replace our anxiety with thanksgiving. He knows and provides all our needs (Matthew 6:32). He is pleased when we respond to his faithfulness with a heart of faith and trust. What else can we possibly need when God of the universe meets all our needs?

3) Cut off all useless thinking that brings no glory to God by leaning on him in prayer. We can’t free ourselves from our addictions and habits, but we can give our will to the One who can. God gave us the power of will. Let’s not pile on things and complicate our minds that should instead be consumed with the things of the Spirit. Surrender and severe the idol of control! Pour all your worries and anxieties at the foot of the cross.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you (Philippians 4:8-9).

4) Let him replace your internal occupations with God-inspired thoughts. Truth is truth because it never dies and always refreshes. Once your mind belongs to God, the living water never stops flowing. Fill your mind with the Truth (aka the Bible, our daily bread) and take them into action – in obedience.

4) Obedience comes when a mind is surrendered to His will. Preach to yourself and live out: His will over my will.

5) Prayer and obedience brings peace. Both are results of a surrendered heart, and Prince of Peace reigns over a willing spirit. Two kings cannot reign over one kingdom. Give your rights and let him take over. I can’t explain Peace in words…you simply taste heaven on earth in His peace. And that alone is worth continuous surrender for eternity.
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